double trouble!

I’m sad.

I’m really sad.

You see, I’m a twin. My twin sis and I have not lived by each other in 14 yrs.

And then, exactly one year and a month ago, that all changed.

The unbelievable happened, she moved to Arizona and boy was I excited!!!
She now lives only two miles from me.

I never realized, until she moved here, that there was a void in my life that she filled. It’s true what they say… twins share a close bond with each other.

This bond comes from having walked every step of our childhood by each others side. Who else but a twin gets to share the same birthday, baptism day, and even “looks” with their bestfriend.

We picked up right where we left off so many years ago. We can still finish each others sentences. We still seem to know what each other is thinking.

We each have 5 children. We both have 2 daughters and we both have three sons. They are the best of friends but can fight as good as siblings do. We love each others kids like they were our own and when one of us leave town, we know our children are being taken care of, just as we would care for them ourselves.

And now after all the excitement of having her finally live right next to me, I’m painfully aware that she might be moving away, all in the name of LOVE. You see, her new man proposed, and he lives in Utah.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m thrilled that she has found this wonderful guy who makes her happy from the inside out, after a very long time, and after a very crummy divorce.

I’m beyond thrilled for her. I'm just bummed that there might be hundreds of miles between us... again.

For her, I’m “loving what is” but for me, I must say, I’m not there yet!

And that makes me sad.